Desire burning

deep in me

deep in my mind

deep in my flesh

deep in my bone

to have

to take

to penetrate

to possess

to make the other mine

Haunted I am

by the desire

the impulse

the need

the driving urge

traumatized

shocked stressed wounded

enslaved by the urge

urgent need

crazy demand

from hormonal hunger

take and take again

Keep the other silent

hidden under a blanket of shame

and ambitious hope

Olympic Games versus justice

gold medal versus permanent stigma

Speak your trauma

And you will be annihilated

sidelined rejected repudiated

blackballed and blacklisted

Suffer and accept the suffering

The other as the forced agreeing victim

and my pleasure is satiated

and the other’s success

is credited to Me, Myself and I

and Me, Myself and I is

the only heart of the matter

the other others don’t count

let them get the medal

and disappear in the jungle

And I will carry in my soul

my traumatizing trauma forever

till Me, Myself and I

is lowered into Cain’s tomb

the eye of my guilt

looking at my rotting body

and decaying soul